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[28 Sep 2005|07:07am]
hey you fucking homos.
add livingat100mph.
or die.

hahah

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si? [13 Sep 2005|06:35pm]
Delaware began as a proprietary colony. The deed to the property that is now Delaware was granted to William Penn in 1682, by the Duke of York, who later became James II of England. In 1701 William Penn received a charter for Delaware from England, andin n 1704 it gained a separate legislature from Pennsylvania, and then the General Assembly came about.Until after the Revolution Delaware had its own assembly, but the same governor as Pennsylvania. Delaware enjoyed the braodest and most liberal suffrage of the colonial era. Adult white men who owned property could vote, and property ownership was very common, so at least 80% of white men could vote. Taxes were levied by Relationship with England was decent, they received a lot of help from England, yet most colonsits were angry and the taxes imposed after the French-Indian War.
The area had first been colonized as New Sweden in 1638 and been taken over by the Dutch colony of New Netherland in 1655. English control began in 1664. Delaware was named after the Delaware River, which was named after the governor of Virginia, Lord De La Warr. Delaware was known as Pennsylvanias “Three Lower Counties”. There are no noted disputes between the surrounding Indian tribes, and the Delaware colonists.

Delaware had a strong economy during this time. Wilmington was a flour-milling center, and sawmills sprung up along Delaware’s rivers. Delaware was also a lumber supplier. In circulation was paper money, and copper coins. Delaware was mostly industrial, with shipbuilding, ironworks, trading and shipping to be the main components. Most people made their money off of lumber or fishing. Slavery and indentitured servitude was not profitable. There were only about 500 indentured servants in the “three lower counties.”

Delaware has a wet, warmer climate than the colonies to the north. It has a cold winter, but not too harsh, with about 14 inches of snow a year. Delaware is a very small state., and most of the state if flat. Delaware was bordered by New Jersey, Maryland, and Pennsylvania. People lived longer here, because of employment oppurtunities, and colonists were less susceptible to disease.

Delaware was very diverse in religion and ethnic groups. There were Quakers, the Dutch, Swedes, English, Scots-Irish, Catholics, Protestants, Jews, etc. Women made the clothing for the family, and the clothes were very plain. Most families had strict religious values, and everyone was expected at their respective church on Sundays. During free time, children studied their lessons, or went to the common in town to play. Adults would do work around the house, and children were expected to help, but also adults would do religious studies.


i know this is my old lj.

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[04 Sep 2005|01:38pm]
new jersey
delaware
rhode island
i need.

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[28 Aug 2005|07:50pm]

livingat100mph  my new lj

friends only

i really will add only people i trust.

livingat100mph 

livingat100mph 

livingat100mph livingat100mph 

livingat100mph livingat100mph livingat100mph livingat100mph livingat100mph livingat100mph 

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[28 Aug 2005|12:48am]
who wants to go dress shopping tomorrow
i want alex, or maureen, or heather, or someone. any takers?

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[23 Aug 2005|08:56pm]
hey., vote me for homecoming princess.
it will be amusing.

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[23 Aug 2005|08:52pm]
update.

lonely.
but happy.
done.

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[15 Aug 2005|07:19pm]
eric? erik? how ever you spell it. he works at the coffee shop i do my homework at. so gorgeous. too bad he is 20, and way out of my league. but he is so gorgeous that he makes my knees weak.my heart beats faster when he is around he is THAT beautiful.

alex and i have fallen in love with him haha.



alex is the coolest girl EVER. we have spent every day together since last sunday almost.

im so done with boys. at least for now. i always like the ones i can never have, and then they date other people.

so whateverrrrr. :)

im so happy with myself. please dont ruin it.


SO happy.
haha

school is. .. . . . trying.

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[07 Aug 2005|08:58pm]

I fade from the light
Your glory was lost that night
And no mind can't get me right
And now I'm praying that you'll find me out
Stone, stone has pulled me down
But my faith has got me bound to your grey blue eyes
Oh, oh
Oh, oh

Don't forget my broken heart
You remember it from the start
You made it and it's all a part
Of your grey blue eyes
Oh, oh
Oh, oh

You're gone and I know I'm dead
I've lost my way
Can't find it in your grey blue eyes
Grey blue eyes
Grey blue eyes
Grey blue eyes


i wish someone would write a song about me! lol

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[05 Aug 2005|06:49am]
first day was ok.
had homework.
just reading though so thats ok.
didnt finish because christine distracted me lol

1- jon is going to be in my first pd now. that should be fun.
2- lots of fuckin people its ree damn dick u lous.
3. math. fuck math.
4 anthro with greg and matt lol nice.

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[03 Aug 2005|09:49pm]
i feel like tomorrow is D Day.
damn.

schoooollll.
fuccccckkkk.

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[01 Aug 2005|03:47pm]
schedule is all fixed

gifted studies 1st pd
apush 2nd
alg II 3rd
anthropology/archaeology 4th

second term
eng 3 honors
aPUSH
TRIG!
TA woo.

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[31 Jul 2005|05:28pm]
so far my schedule looks like this
1. Chemistry with Brady
2. APUSH with Lovell
3. Algebra II with Walker
4. Anthropology with Saunders

need to get Pd. 1 fixed.

[28 Jul 2005|12:28am]
ive been neglecting poor livejournal.
oh who gives a flying fuck.

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[26 Jul 2005|07:42pm]
new phone.
same number 3869316279
cingular now instead of nextel so everyone leave their
name
and number
and if u have cingular
so i can redo my phone book

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[25 Jul 2005|01:16am]
messy, outgoing, open, self revealing, ambivalent about chaos, unpredictable, not good at saving money, social, likes large parties, likes to stand out, risk taker, quick to make friends, does not like to be alone, rash, fame seeking, sarcastic, craves attention, social chameleon, low self control, food lover, not rule conscious, weird, assertive, not a perfectionist, anti-authority, thrill seeker, vain, likes to fit in, reckless, emotionally sensitive, leisurely, trusting

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||| 80%
Stability |||||||||||||| 53%
Orderliness |||||| 23%
Altruism |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 70%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70%
Artistic |||||||||||||| 56%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||| 23%
Materialism |||||| 23%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Work ethic |||||||||| 36%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 70%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56%
Romantic |||||| 30%
Avoidant |||||| 23%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 43%
Wealth |||||||||||| 43%
Dependency |||||||||| 36%
Change averse |||| 16%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Individuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 43%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 44%
Histrionic |||||||||| 36%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 50%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Female cliche |||||||||||| 50%
Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
Warmth ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||| 38%
Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Liveliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Dutifulness ||||||||||||||| 42%
Social Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Sensitivity ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Paranoia ||||||||||||||| 46%
Abstractness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Introversion ||||||||||||||| 42%
Anxiety ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Independence ||||||||| 22%
Perfectionism |||||||||||| 34%
Tension ||||||||||||||| 42%
Take Cattell 16 Factor Test (similar to 16pf)
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Cattell's 16 Factor Key

Factor                  low score                         high score 
Warmth               cold, selfish                supportive, comforting 
Intellect          instinctive, unstable         cerebral, analytical 
Emotional Stability irritable, moody                level headed, calm 
Aggressiveness      modest, docile                 controlling, tough 
Liveliness           somber, restrained             wild, fun loving 
Dutifulness        untraditional, rebellious       conforming, traditional 
Social Assertiveness shy, withdrawn           uninhibited, bold 
Sensitivity         coarse, tough              touchy, soft 
Paranoia         trusting, easy going          wary, suspicious 
Abstractness      practical, regular           strange, imaginative 
Introversion           open, friendly             private, quiet 
Anxiety             confident, self assured   fearful, self-doubting 
Openmindedness     closeminded, set-in-ways         curious, exploratory 
Independence        outgoing, social              loner, craves solitude 
Perfectionism     disorganized, messy               orderly, thorough 
Tension            relaxed, cool              stressed, unsatisfied

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my new hair [23 Jul 2005|01:11am]
 DweLloNdrEaMS: i'd say that qualifies as pretty darn rockstar lol






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[22 Jul 2005|09:38pm]
i dyed my hair b lack, but it will wash out in 10 days

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[21 Jul 2005|01:24am]
everyone needs to get msn messenger. its so much cooler than AIM

ps do u like my icon

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reading. [18 Jul 2005|09:37pm]

OK so.. in the past..2, or 3 weeks i have read

  • Harry Potter 5
  • Harry Potter 6
  • Slaughterhouse 5
  • Cats Cradle
  • Mother Night
  • The Chosen
  • A Lesson Before Dying
  • Plum Island
  • The Lions Game
  • Night Fall
  • and in the process of reading the Da Vinci Code (again)

im sick.

 

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[18 Jul 2005|05:52pm]
christine is amazing.
she brought me yellow roses :)

heather is cool cuz she went to ice cream with me last night.


spike sucks. he called before he boarded the plane to boot camp. sad.

BUT ITS OK. :) hell be back in 8 weeks and 6 days

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[18 Jul 2005|12:54am]
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050718005919-569992

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[17 Jul 2005|07:46pm]
spikes gone.
and im really sad.
but he will be back,
and i get to go to chicago to see him graduate in september...


i just need a hug.

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club med. [17 Jul 2005|07:47am]
the following are from a tribal percussion performance...

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[09 Jul 2005|10:27am]

GONE TODAY UNTIL NEXT SUNDAY i better have lots of comments when i get back or EMAILS dontwannabeblind@gmail.com in my inbox.

love to everyone. \\

 

 

(oh and you. yes you the one without the LJ that reads mine anyways. im sorry.)

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[09 Jul 2005|12:16am]
gone tomorrow until next sunday.

leave me lots of love.

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[07 Jul 2005|11:38am]
omg alex is ok.
im still praying for byron and your mom sweetie

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[07 Jul 2005|10:52am]

alex sirotovich please comment or call me ASAP

im so worried about you im in tears.

please.

alex is in london.

45 people are dead.

at least.

please if theres a god watch over her.

i love her too much.

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[02 Jul 2005|11:58pm]
where waldo was: you rock.
dontwannabeblind: really?>
dontwannabeblind: why
where waldo was: 1. you're fun to talk to.
2. I'm not bored with you.
3. You're a cutie.
4. you just made a song about how you threatened to murder your brother in cold blood with a butter knife.

i did.
it was funny.
dontwannabeblind: then i threatened his life
dontwannabeblind: with a butter knife.


i love being dorky.

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[02 Jul 2005|10:26pm]

When I'ma walkin, I strut my stuff, then I'm so strung out.

I'm high as a kite, and I just might, stop to check you out.

 

lalal. violent femmes.

 

went to lunch with my parents and shopping today. it was ok, i HATE shopping. and i feel like shit.

its amazing how you meet the coolest people online, yea there are cynics out there that say everyone lies, and all the guys are really just perverts. but am i right or wrong in saying that you are more honest with a stranger than you are with your own friends?

Im right i think. there are things i can tell people i just met, that i cant tell some of my friends. so there.

no im not just talking about craig, just people you meet online in general. and this kid david in indiana is awesome!!!!

 

i was talking to my friend colin, not lefler, the other night and we had like really deep conversations... and i barely know him, but he is so nice... and theres this guy on catch 27 in california that is really cool. and its just fun to talk to people. and get to know them.

 

 

that wasnt directed at anyone btw.

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[02 Jul 2005|01:01pm]
I POST THE MOST POINTLESS SHIT.
ok done with it.
no more pointless shit.
i promise.

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[01 Jul 2005|04:17pm]
"White Men In Black Suits"

I am just a boy working in a record store
Yes I moved to San Francisco just to see what I could be
I am a loser geek, crazy with an evil streak
Yes I do believe there is a violent thing inside of me
She is just a girl, she is doing what she can
She dances topless
When she's not playing in her band
Such a pretty girl, happy in an ugly place
Watching all the pretty people do lots of ugly things
I think it's getting better for the two of us
Yes I think it's getting better almost everyday
I could give a damn for what those people say
All I want to do is lose myself in your room
All you want is just a slow fuck in the afternoon

I still see those scary guys when I am all alone at night
I kiss the ring you gave me then I swing with all my might
I think it's getting better for the two of us
I think it's getting easier for you and me to agree
That the white men in black suits
They are diminishing
Yes I think they are diminishing
Yes I think they diminish you and they diminish me
I think they are diminishing
You know sometimes I hear those people say
Yeah she takes a bus
Over to the north side of the city
She goes to work stripping for the rich white men
All the words they give her
Make her feel so soft and pretty
She wears them but they never seem to fit
Yes I think it's getting beter for the two of us
Yes I think it's getting better in the worst way
I refuse to be afraid of almost everyone
Afraid of all the things they do or the words that they say
Let's live the way we want to live and hope they go away
I really hope they go away
I really hope they find a nice place
I hope they find it somewhere
I hope they go away
I can still hear all those people say

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[01 Jul 2005|01:58pm]
http://www.catch27.com/join.php?invite=36376

everyone join

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[01 Jul 2005|12:45pm]
Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me abut your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything and everything.


Post anonymously. Speak honestly, because there isn't any sensor here. Post as many times as you like. One faceless wonder to another.

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[30 Jun 2005|06:00pm]
war of the worlds tomorrow night at 7 or 7:30.
going with christini if everything turns out as planned

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[30 Jun 2005|01:18am]
war of the worlds was really good.
at one point i was crying so hard i was shaking.
it was just very intense.

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nicole mccain its all ur fault im doing this! [29 Jun 2005|02:40pm]

survey ness. comment bitches lalalalalCollapse )

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[29 Jun 2005|12:39pm]
hahah whatever/
im over it.
jon just IMED me saying he hates me because i posted about us.
saying we just did a 180 on our relationship and then i posted about it again, so he hates me. no wait.
he fucking hates me.
haha WHAT RELATIONSHIP JON?
nothing changed last night? except for you telling me not to talk to you.
there was no turning around after that.

hate me.
fine im done with you being immature.




i just woke up lol.
war of the worlds tonite.

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[28 Jun 2005|09:51pm]
new hair.


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[28 Jun 2005|02:09am]
thanks for talking to me last night craig , you made my day that much better :)



threw spike a going away party very sad but really fun then i saw batman again and then when i got home talked to my boo for 2 hours.

one of the most awkward, blushworthy, funniest conversations ive ever had. :)

we should come up with a code name when we talk about all that.

but only if the code name doesnt have twitch, water droplet, or teeth in it/

haha





i crack my self up.



OH AND CRAIG THANKS FOR RUINING EVERYTHING.

(he he you probably think im mad at him, but im secretly wanthing him very badly lol)





anyways.





u did say i should post it.



justkidding.





lalala got back fromt he club it was really fun. and spikes dancing has improved a lot. no he didnt rub his penis on me craig its ok lol

ttyl.

i love you guys. 3869316279



yea i took that from my myspace.
half of you have no idea what im talking about.


yea i miss him. :(

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[24 Jun 2005|02:02am]

the hate list.

 

when your friends let you down

when you give too much

when your kisses are really really boring

when you want to be near someone and you cant

when you want people to understand your point but they are too thickheaded to understand.

when your friends put boys before you.

when you cant just let people know how you feel with out being attacked

when the curfew gets in the way

 

gar when u feel like ur the bad guy and you aremt

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[20 Jun 2005|10:04pm]

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heheheh.

i ahte my body!

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[17 Jun 2005|03:54pm]
i drove over 100 miles yesterday:)

yay.
i love driving.



no one comments anymore.
or emails me. :(


i woke upwith a migraine this morning
so i didnt get to hang out with jon

tomorrow
plans?
not sure i might go ride down to see adam in ormond
if the mamma lets me

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[16 Jun 2005|07:07am]
happy birthday you.
ill blow a kiss to the sky.



dmv this morning.
hopefully 3rd times a charm

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[15 Jun 2005|09:17pm]
1) Total number of films I own on DVD/video (rips included): about 30

2) The last film I bought: ray

3) The last film I watched: monty python and the meaning of life

4) Six films that I watch a lot or that mean a lot to me:
lord of the rings
star wars
monty python and the holy grail
thats really like 7. sooo.

List your current six favorite songs, then pick six other people that have to do the same.

1. everclear- the twistinside
2. green day-good riddance
3. 4 non blondes- whats going on
4. bach- pachebels canon in d
5. david banner- might getcha (plays at jaguar games)
6. tori amos -crucify

Oh, I tag...
spike
maureen
christine
kyle
lauren m
nicole m

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[14 Jun 2005|11:29pm]
She don't run from the sun no more
She boxed her shadow and she won
Said I can see you laugh
Through these bottle caps
And this wire around my neck aint
There for fun

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

Meanwhile I hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I cant see you
Then you can't see me

And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

Yeah they talk about her
She smiles like shes so tough
She says
"hey can you talk a little louder,
I don't think my heart is broken enough"

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

Meanwhile I hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

Some days I wait in the indigo
Singing that song on the radio
I blame these puddles on the rain
You know I gotta keep these cheeks dry today
Gotta keep my cheating strategy
And baby I'm gonna have it made.

 

 

my song

 

paper bag

anna nalick.

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[13 Jun 2005|12:31am]
You are the bad girl, you coulndt care less about what people think, but you have a soft side that you dont like people to see
You are a badass

You seem like the one people would love to hate,
because you're friends with all the guys and
the other girls hate it. What they dont know is
that oyu have a softer side, though you dont
show it often.


What label can I put on you today?
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HASH(0x90b68c0)
You are the Goddess of Night. You are much
differant than the Goddess of Darkness, you are
beautiful and full of passion and life, but you
often stay locked inside yourself. Chances are
that you're a poet or other artist, and create
beautiful works. Some people are drawn to you
and others percieve you as a freak, but don't
listen to what others have to say, just listen
to yourself. You have a passion for words and
chances are you love Shakespere and the like.
You want to surround yourself with people who
accept but often feel like nobody likes you,
but remember that's not true, and you have a
lot to offer, just believe in yourself. As for
love, you are either too trusting or you trust
no one. Guys are stupid, unless you find one
that will see you for who you really are and
not how others percieve you. You tend to
either one extreme or the other, hardley ever
in the middle. Just listen to yourself and you
will go far. Rock On


What are you goddess of?
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[11 Jun 2005|01:51pm]
List 5 things you do in your room that relax you. Then tag 5 people that must post their five things.

1) sleep
2) read
3) talk on the phone
4) write
5) play my guitar

I tag:
justin
spike
taylor
maureen
boredsoldier

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[10 Jun 2005|08:54pm]
Breathe In. Thats it. Soak it in. Lets the chemicals course through your pathetic body, weak with its beauty. Breathe Out. Good.
 
Breathe In. You can do it. Let your chest rise, if for the last time. You might make it. Lets darken the world with your smile once more. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. One more time baby. Suck in the juices of life, as you so expertly sucked the life from me. You are quite good at that. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. Get your blood pumping. Let your heart beat again, to rhythm of which i could never write the music. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. I can hear you coughing now. Coughing as you strain to say the words i wish i didnt already know. Im watching you now. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. Your eyes dart. The red lights flash. The grey blanket falls from your broad shoulders. You see my face, smiling, before the black plastic zips over my face. That face, that you killed, yet tried to save. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. You look up. I know you hear me, urging you to go. The sun blinds you for a moment, the sand hot against your too wet skin. The muffled voices sound so foreign to you. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. Your eyes pool with tears. You havent cried like this is years. Your wallet is handed to you, instinctively you thumb through the random receipts, cards and pictures. Her face glares at you, screaming, as you rip it to shreds. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. Your heart is beating quicker now. You know...I tried to walk on water. All for you. Maybe if i was divine you would stop giving up. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. Your pulse quickens. Slightly lightheaded, you stand up. You force yourself to look at the rolling sea under the dark sky. My tears wet your cheeks, and it starts to rain. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. Your legs, like lead, walk towards the ocean. So full of life, and death, of the only thing left you truly loved. Breathe Out.
 
Breathe In. Your palms sweat. The waves wash you of your sins. First your ankles, then your knees. This 'holy' water washes up to your chest, your chin. I blind you, yet you walk with a smile. They cant see you any more. The water reaches your eyes, and you are free. Breathe In.

(2 Pulled Out Their Spears | Wanna Dance ? )

[10 Jun 2005|02:11pm]
im back.
and relaxed.
i wrote.
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